Aku bersedih dengan ape yg berlaku dekat Palestine tu..
aku xmampu nak buat ape... dengan ape yg berlaku, aku trase hine..
Israel telah melampaui batasan ~

Harini, aku bangun dari tido pukul 11 pagi. Dalam cuti ni, biase2 bangun dlm tengah hari or petang. So, bangun pade kol 11 pagi ni, aku still rase penat. Aku tengok henset ade 2 msg dan 2 miskol. Owh, msg ni drpd awek aku die bgtau die sudah bertolak ke pulau.. dan sudah naek bot.. Sebenarnye, mase die call tu aku dah sedar.. aku just buat2 xdengar je.. Sbb aku rase, aku xsanggup nak lepaskan die pg.. Walaupon die pg cume untuk sehari,aku rase macam die nak pg selamanya.. Aku rase macam ditinggalkan.. Aku pon xpasti dengan perasaan ini.. but it different.. Xsame time klu die nk pg KL dengan family ke, pg vacation ngan family ke.. even a week. aku xrase macam ape yg aku rase sekarang.. Sbb aku nak g pulau tu jgak ke? Ataupon term "pulau" tu yg agak jarang digunakan dlm kehidupan seharian aku, buat perasaan aku rase laen? Ataupon pulau tu melambangkan perpisahan atau pon pemergian? The feeling, it`s is quite mystery for me. Well, I hope she`ll be ok there and have a good time with her friends.

Actually, aku bangun lebeh awal arini bukan nk ckp pasal ni pon. Ni sekadar nk bgtau perasaan aku ketika ni. So, when I read this once again,I`ll know how I feel at this time. That the purpose of it. Hmm, nak tulis story dlm blog aku rase cam susah sket klu banding tulis lam buku diari. Walaupon yg sudah ditaip, boleh didelete bile2 mase je, bagi aku ia xsemudah spt tulis dlm diari. Haha,stakat aku tulis ni pon rase2 nye dh byk aku delete.

Spt dlm buku diari pon, aku hanya tulis pasal kehidupan semate2. I always remind myself, " There`s no end when talking about life ". " Tiada penghujung apabila bercakap pasal kehidupan ". Context of life, context of living is so wide. Kali ini, aku nak sentuh pasal ego. Egoism. Sebelum ni pon aku dah tulis pasal ego ni, but see.. its wide.. egoism is wide. Belum ckup pon ape yg tulis sebelom ni.. so that prove enough my quotation. I take 2-3 days to think about this. About ego of livings.

Bagi pendapat aku, ego seorg lelaki tidak sama spt ego seorg pmpuan. Seumpama ego seorg ayah tidak akan same spt ego seorang ibu. I dont know if the fact is was there before, scientifically found by some else, I dont know. Tapi, aku hanya dpt merasai, melalui ego sbg orang lelaki shj. Ape yg aku nak ckp, aku xtau mcm mane ego seorg pmpuan. I`ll never know. Adakah sekadar perlu seorg lelaki untuk tahu mcm mane ego seorg pmpuan?.. atau penting untuk memahami egonya? Hahaha, susah nak tahu or memahami klu selagi xmengatasi ego dr sndr sbg seorg lelaki. Sbab aku melaluinya. Sbb aku, xyah ckp memahami la.. nak tahu pasal ego pmpuan pon aku dah mls. I dont care. I dont want to know. coz it heavy. it burden. aku rase meluat, menyampah, benci klu melibatkan ego ni. Xperlu ego org laen, ego aku sndri pon aku dah benci. It is out of control. Uncontrollable. It act like a poison... and i cant stop it. I cant even find what the solution of ego. Smoke? So, how long it would be ? ... Hang out? But whos ur fren ? .. Game? Till when?.. thas why i hate ego. it makes me ill. I hate ego.

How I Describe The Term of " Happiness "

When I can buy whatever things I want..
When I can sleep tight either day or night..
When I can go to somewhere that I love...
When I can eat without feel worry..
When I can watch television alone..
When I can play my guitar freely..
When I can talk to the cats..
When I can see my family happy..
When I can bath all days..
When I can be with my girl..

and when I die in my bedroom..
=)

What the things I HATE most ..

I hate ring tones and I hate to hear them. I hate sms. I hate to accept calls because I hate to talk,I guess.
I hate friend. I hate friends. I hate both. I hate noise but I hate silence too. I hate books. I hate broken remote controls. I hate my hair and I hate myself.

I hate egos. I hate kids when they cry. I hate to see refrigerator without food. I hate to see people laughing. I hate to watch the beach full with people. I hate to enter a shop with a bunch of people. I hate people outside.

I hate to depend on money. I hate to depend on other people. I hate waiting. I hate rain and hot. I hate days and nights. I hate feelings. I hate friendships and loves because I just hate this life.

Owh one more, I hate flies and islands.