doh ade aku suruh mg bace ke? meluat sekor mung la

Such thinking that most deaf and dumb

It is so fucking hard to believe, when there are so much things that we expect we know very well, we expect we can explain very well.. But, they just stuck in your mind and your mouth cannot fucking say anything... You just shut the fuck up and ending stunned yourself~

Simple but bad dream,made me wake up..

Aku : " Ko kelas aku kan? aku cam penah nampak ko dlm kelas.."

X : "Aha.."

Aku : " Abes ko pg mane slame ni ? "

X : " Aku pg maen snuker, hehehe.. "

Aku : " Lor,maen snuker,patut ar cam penah nampak kat tempat snuker "

X : " Aku lepak ngan bla bla bla ( lupe sape ) "

Aku : " Name ko ape er? "

X : " Name aku bla bla bla ( lupe sape ) "

.....sambil Si X bwak myvi oren ( situasi mcm baru balik dari kelas.. aku duk sebelah seat dlm kete tu )

X : " Hahaha, aku ckp nak sewe kereta,padahal member aku nak buat PSM "

Y : " JP13 tu ? "

Aku : ( aku diam dan aku dgr je .. si Y dah pandang2 aku... )

X : " Aha,JP13 la... hahaha... aku ckp la kat die aku nak sewe kereta, die ckp kat aku " ko jgn bla bla bla ( lupe detail ) ".. ahhahaha"

Y : " Hahaha.. macam mane tu er.. "

X : " AKu call die, die bla bla bla ( lupe ) ... hahahahh ( gelak cam excited+kelakar)

Aku : ( hati dah panas...benci dan segalanya )

...situasi cam dlm bilik/hostel..tgh lepak2 kat ruang tamu....aku baring atas lantai diantare pintu bilik... dorang sembang atas tilam....

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other than a trust, compassion, responsibility, love involves feelings of pain, hatred and sorrow. Love is not a term that everyone really knows, love is really invisible. People can feel it but never/cannot touch it. Love is not always sweet but sometimes bitter. Beliefs and lies stand between sweetness and bitterness of love ( bittersweet of love ).

Do I know what love is? Anger and jealousy are part of love and part of myself. I love someone deeply, but eventually she did not know it very well. Men are not the same as women.Never compare both species and you said you know it. That`s bullshit.

I `m just not too good in writing, but the sentences keep flowing in my mind.Yeah, I let go the bad memories, but the scar is always there. That should become the important reminder for me and you.

aku mane suke gaduh2 ni..

aku ni laki, nak melawan pn tengok jantina,

mane ade betine lawan jantan.. tu setan

Having a friend like the shadow is much better than having a friend like a rainbow asthough the shadow is dark and black, but it is always beside us, compared to abeautiful rainbow, but only temporarily.

UMNO is not the way of life ~

Kesan daripada pemerintahan UMNO selama lebih 50 tahun :-

Kes rogol meningkat

Kes rompak meningkat

Kes ragut meningkat

Kes kecurian meningkat

Kes pembuangan bayi meningkat

Kes murtad meningkat

Kes rasuah meningkat

Kes penceraian meningkat

Gejala sosial yang negative meningkat ( Pergaulan bebas dll )

Kesimpulan kes jenayah dan gejala sosial yg buruk meningkat

Punca:

UMNO tidak menitikberatkan soal agama Islam.

UMNO kurang didikan agama Islam.

UMNO menitikberatkan pembangunan zahir semata-mata.

UMNO memisahkan politik dengan agama Islam.

UMNO tidak melaksanakan hukum hudud dalam undang-undang Malaysia.

UMNO lebih mengutamakan Melayu berbanding agama Islam.

UMNO mendewa-dewakan demokrasi yang korup.

UMNO tidak berada pada landasan yang benar.

Oh FAILURE please come to me.. I want to learn from you~

xD

Maybe it's not too late
To learn how to love
And forget how to hate

Both my hands were witnesses..

Recently,I have seen the excitement and success of others through a variety of sources. Mostly I had never experienced and enjoy like them. So, I asked myself, whether I'm in a loss?Am I jealous? In fact, the forms of questions like these are always disturbing my thoughts.Yeap, I'm in the loss. I wrapped myself with ignorance, stupidity, deceit and laziness. That is the essence of my life now. Even so, honestly, I really intend and want to change myself to the good. I need a little more time. Deliver my soul and body, O Creator ..

My Dream

I want to be a great guitarist..
I wish I would ~

Getting confuse and confuse ....

Upset and time ticking..
Imagine the great dream that impossible to achieve..
Lack of confidence and guts..
But life still go on..

I`m just ordinary person..

Always tired, but never asleep ~

tEnsiOn TeNsiOn ~

aku ingat sume dah ok.. ade plak hal laen yg buat aku sakit hati..
klu terjadi kat orang laen pon,konpom sakit hati gak..
patut la trase berat di hati.. uper2nye ade gamba2 yg xmenyenangkan..
klu ikotkan hati ni trase nak kasi penerajang la jgak.. tp sape la aku nak sentuh2 orang ni..
aduh la.. xpaham aku.. sabaw je la~

Aku bersedih dengan ape yg berlaku dekat Palestine tu..
aku xmampu nak buat ape... dengan ape yg berlaku, aku trase hine..
Israel telah melampaui batasan ~

Harini, aku bangun dari tido pukul 11 pagi. Dalam cuti ni, biase2 bangun dlm tengah hari or petang. So, bangun pade kol 11 pagi ni, aku still rase penat. Aku tengok henset ade 2 msg dan 2 miskol. Owh, msg ni drpd awek aku die bgtau die sudah bertolak ke pulau.. dan sudah naek bot.. Sebenarnye, mase die call tu aku dah sedar.. aku just buat2 xdengar je.. Sbb aku rase, aku xsanggup nak lepaskan die pg.. Walaupon die pg cume untuk sehari,aku rase macam die nak pg selamanya.. Aku rase macam ditinggalkan.. Aku pon xpasti dengan perasaan ini.. but it different.. Xsame time klu die nk pg KL dengan family ke, pg vacation ngan family ke.. even a week. aku xrase macam ape yg aku rase sekarang.. Sbb aku nak g pulau tu jgak ke? Ataupon term "pulau" tu yg agak jarang digunakan dlm kehidupan seharian aku, buat perasaan aku rase laen? Ataupon pulau tu melambangkan perpisahan atau pon pemergian? The feeling, it`s is quite mystery for me. Well, I hope she`ll be ok there and have a good time with her friends.

Actually, aku bangun lebeh awal arini bukan nk ckp pasal ni pon. Ni sekadar nk bgtau perasaan aku ketika ni. So, when I read this once again,I`ll know how I feel at this time. That the purpose of it. Hmm, nak tulis story dlm blog aku rase cam susah sket klu banding tulis lam buku diari. Walaupon yg sudah ditaip, boleh didelete bile2 mase je, bagi aku ia xsemudah spt tulis dlm diari. Haha,stakat aku tulis ni pon rase2 nye dh byk aku delete.

Spt dlm buku diari pon, aku hanya tulis pasal kehidupan semate2. I always remind myself, " There`s no end when talking about life ". " Tiada penghujung apabila bercakap pasal kehidupan ". Context of life, context of living is so wide. Kali ini, aku nak sentuh pasal ego. Egoism. Sebelum ni pon aku dah tulis pasal ego ni, but see.. its wide.. egoism is wide. Belum ckup pon ape yg tulis sebelom ni.. so that prove enough my quotation. I take 2-3 days to think about this. About ego of livings.

Bagi pendapat aku, ego seorg lelaki tidak sama spt ego seorg pmpuan. Seumpama ego seorg ayah tidak akan same spt ego seorang ibu. I dont know if the fact is was there before, scientifically found by some else, I dont know. Tapi, aku hanya dpt merasai, melalui ego sbg orang lelaki shj. Ape yg aku nak ckp, aku xtau mcm mane ego seorg pmpuan. I`ll never know. Adakah sekadar perlu seorg lelaki untuk tahu mcm mane ego seorg pmpuan?.. atau penting untuk memahami egonya? Hahaha, susah nak tahu or memahami klu selagi xmengatasi ego dr sndr sbg seorg lelaki. Sbab aku melaluinya. Sbb aku, xyah ckp memahami la.. nak tahu pasal ego pmpuan pon aku dah mls. I dont care. I dont want to know. coz it heavy. it burden. aku rase meluat, menyampah, benci klu melibatkan ego ni. Xperlu ego org laen, ego aku sndri pon aku dah benci. It is out of control. Uncontrollable. It act like a poison... and i cant stop it. I cant even find what the solution of ego. Smoke? So, how long it would be ? ... Hang out? But whos ur fren ? .. Game? Till when?.. thas why i hate ego. it makes me ill. I hate ego.

How I Describe The Term of " Happiness "

When I can buy whatever things I want..
When I can sleep tight either day or night..
When I can go to somewhere that I love...
When I can eat without feel worry..
When I can watch television alone..
When I can play my guitar freely..
When I can talk to the cats..
When I can see my family happy..
When I can bath all days..
When I can be with my girl..

and when I die in my bedroom..
=)

What the things I HATE most ..

I hate ring tones and I hate to hear them. I hate sms. I hate to accept calls because I hate to talk,I guess.
I hate friend. I hate friends. I hate both. I hate noise but I hate silence too. I hate books. I hate broken remote controls. I hate my hair and I hate myself.

I hate egos. I hate kids when they cry. I hate to see refrigerator without food. I hate to see people laughing. I hate to watch the beach full with people. I hate to enter a shop with a bunch of people. I hate people outside.

I hate to depend on money. I hate to depend on other people. I hate waiting. I hate rain and hot. I hate days and nights. I hate feelings. I hate friendships and loves because I just hate this life.

Owh one more, I hate flies and islands.

There`s no a term of " BEST FRIEND " in my life. What a beautiful life ~

MOney? It always be my worse problem..

I knew before , I know right now and I`ll know after this that I`m the way I`m.

I feel kinda missing something in my life.  By the way its not a feel , but it is/was the thing that I always know/knew and waiting myself to be on the immortal path.

Morning mean nothing to this life.. But i still appreaciate the beauty of it

I hurt my soul so much and till now it wont stop.. I feel so bad.. So bad ~

Today I live within my own hatred

YoVille